Thursday, September 15, 2016

bumpdate: 24 weeks

How Far Along? 
24 weeks along, today!
Maternity Clothes? 
Honestly, so far I really only have 3 pairs of maternity pants and one maternity dress (that I know many other people who are not pregnant own, ha!). So yes and no but I'm quickly running out of options.
I really like sleep. A few weeks ago, I got a body pillow from Bed, Bath and Beyond with a gift card we had and it's been AMAZING! I sleep a lot better with it but I still get up at least twice to pee during the night.
Notable pregnancy moments?
At the doctor I found out she is sitting upright, like me with her feet down below (kicking my bladder) and her head up high by my lungs. Nothing to worry about right now, but we will keep it monitored.
Quite a bit! She moves sporadically throughout the day and pretty frequently, but there are still many quiet moments, too! 
Gender: Sugar and Spice! GIRL!
Food Cravings?
Gosh, everything? Haha. Specifically mozzarella sticks, homemade chocolate chip cookies and french fries.
Morning Sickness?
Sometimes, I will wake up and feel nauseous very briefly but then not again for the rest of the day.
Lower back pain! UGH! This one sucks. If I am up doing something for too long, I will have to take a break and sit for a while before I can resume the task. Also, gas pain: I hate you.
Looking forward to?
Getting in the OBGYN and figuring everything out within the next few appointments.

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

baby girl white

This story really starts almost 2.5 years ago when Zach and I were married. I was on the pill and it made me crazy. We knew we wanted to wait at least a year before starting to try to have a baby. Skip a year into our marriage, I was having trouble with my period so I stopped taking the pill and we decided it wasn't a big deal if we held off on finding another form of birth control. FUN FACT: when you are a virgin and you get married, because you start having sex you automatically think you're pregnant. At least for me, I am pretty sure if my period was 30 seconds late I would buy a test because I thought I was pregnant. Pretty sure we bought like a test every month because I was SURE I was pregnant haha. Woops, sorry Zach! Anyways, I was off the pill and I wasn't getting a period. Come 2 months later (probably closer to 3 months sans my monthly gift), I get a period. Yay, right?! Not quite. It was irregular from that point for months.

I always wanted to pregnant/about-to-pop have a baby when I graduated from school. The months came and went. I was having symptoms of pregnancy probably because I was hoping so much to BE pregnant that I was searching for any signs I could be. It was so hard for me to go every month and not be disappointed. It was 90% (generous?) what I thought about everyday until I was supposed to get Mother Nature's gift. Skip to the month before graduation; Zach and I decided it was going to be hard to continue living month to month in hopes of me becoming pregnant so we put in a deposit on a puppy. A sweet, little female Goldendoodle puppy. We weren't trying to replace a child with a pet, but I needed something to have when we moved to Durham! We love animals (particularly dogs, particularly golden retrievers) and knew when we got married we wanted to have children but if things didn't go how we wanted we would get a pet before kids. Or get a pet after we were done having kids. Anyways, we were all ready to get that sweet little puppy and bring her here with us!

A whole month passed, puppy on my mind. One day, May 7, I was home. Zach wasn't, he was helping his older brother move gravel into their yard to build a shed. I was leaving in like 30 minutes to take a family's photo's in the park but was idling in the bathroom. I had started to think about packing our things, what we would take and what we would give away. I opened the drawer and saw a lone pregnancy test. They come in packs of 2 and I had taken one already, probably the month before. Anyways, a thought popped into my head, "Well, I'm not gonna pack a solo pregnancy test when we move. I may as well take it now." Usually, I don't watch the lines because I feel like it takes longer but this one, I knew I wasn't pregnant. So I watched. One line... Two lines. Wait, what? 2 LINES?! I looked at that thing for 2 minutes straight. Maybe longer, maybe shorter. I started to panic. "Oh my gosh." I just kept saying it out loud, then faster, then crying. I COULD NOT believe it. I wasn't supposed to be doing this by myself! Zach and I decided to look at the results of pregnancy tests together; because if it was negative we could comfort each other and if it was positive, which it never was, we could celebrate together. I called Zach, probably 20 times, with no answer. I had to leave to go meet our friends at the park to take their photos yet Zach still didn't answer! I didn't want to show up at his brother's house for fear that he wouldn't be able to hide it or that he would be mad at me for taking the test without him. FINALLY, he answered. I was hysterical at this point so I really don't know how he understood me but I told him I was sorry for taking the test without him but that I was pregnant. He was so happy and I could've chatted with him forever but I had to leave! So I went to take the photos and once we were done, I sped home. While I was out, I had him buy me ANOTHER test (you're welcome pregnancy test companies for keeping you in business by myself) and I showed the first one. We cried and hugged and laughed and were so shocked! The second test was a digital one and it was also PREGNANT! The one month I wasn't thinking about being pregnant or becoming pregnant or babies was the one month that changed our lives.

^^Fun fact: I made fun of people that took pictures with their pregnancy tests. Like, you just peed on that. Now you're taking a picture of it. Why? Well, BECAUSE! That is proof that you are, in fact, with child. And it's cool and whatever.

We couldn't really wait to tell our folks so we told them the next day. Nothing fancy or special, we just told them. They knew it was hard for us to want a baby so bad for so long and not have anything happen so they were thrilled for us. This will be Zach's parent's 10th grandbaby and my parent's FIRST grandbaby! We are all so excited. Here are some other relevant pictures of me/my belly since then that are a part of our journey thus far. Bump updates to come!

^^ Our first ultrasound! Zach's uncle did it for us and I was so grateful to him. I think I hugged him like 3 times haha. Doesn't look like much, and really didn't look like much to me, but hearing the heartbeat that first trip was really something else. 

^^ We had Zach's other uncle, Uncle Sean, do an ultrasound for us at 16 weeks. I didn't have any prenatal care while we lived in Utah because of our wonderful family who would do the ultrasounds for us. Anyway, Uncle Sean is a Perinatologist so he was able to do a pretty hi-tech ultrasound for us. We were able to see her little hands, profile, legs, bum and lady parts... that's right! GIRL! We are thrilled. 

^^ Trying on my bridesmaid dress with the bump. I think this was 20 weeks.

^^ Pretty sure this was the same day! Haha. Just wearing a different dress. Do not be fooled, much of that is fat that was there before BUT there is definitely a baby in there. I can feel her attacking me regularly ;)

wedding weekend

2 weeks after we got to Durham, we hopped on a jet plane and flew to San Diego, CA for my little brother Matt's wedding. We got in early Thursday August 18 and my mama picked us up from the airport. We got In-N-Out for lunch and headed over to the house where the reception would be to help set up. I'm so sad because I hardly took ANY pictures but hope to post some here when my brother and his wife get their wedding photos back. Anyways, Friday we hung out together and I got my nails done with my mama while the boys hung out. That night was the family dinner put on at the same home as the reception and my parents did the dinner. This taco truck came and cooked super yummy tacos and quesadillas. There was a hibiscus drink and it was delicious. I loved getting to be with my family and see our dear family friends! Especially, my little cousin/sister Jessica. I love her dearly. She's my person (you too, Zach!)

Then we woke up bright and early Saturday to head over to the temple for the sealing. It was a beautiful sealing and I loved getting to be a part of their special day. Baby girl and I were bridesmaids and Zach was a groomsman so we also stayed after a while at the temple for photos. Matt and Brooke looked gorgeous. Post-wedding we went to lunch with Brooke's family then back to the hotel for naps until the reception. The reception was so pretty and there was a yummy waffle bar. The best part, though, was definitely the dancing. There were so many of Matt's childhood friends at the reception that I have also grown up with and my family made for prime dancing conditions. We got DOWN + danced the night away. I was SO sore after (Pop, Lock and Drop It will do that to ya) and sweaty and tired but it was worth it. The next morning we flew out early and I couldn't help but cry as I departed from my dad at the airport because we just live so far. I'm excited to be able to go home for a short time in November to be with my family again!

durham so far

I don't have any pictures from our 3 days car haul from Provo to Durham because I drove a lot of the time and when I wasn't driving I was so tired while riding shot gun (thanks mom, for helping me drive!) but it was... long. Day 1: Provo to Topeka, KS. A little over 14 hours. SO LONG. The best part about this leg of the trip was Colorado. Most of it was just gorgeous, just the last little part was when it looked just like the rest of the drive into Kansas. Day 2: Topeka to Charleston, WV. A little less than 13 hours. Not as bad as day one in terms of length but a little worse in terms of scenery. But mom and I DID get our pizza hut for lunch so we were happy. The whole 2 day and some change of a drive was occupied with listening to "Inferno" by Dan Brown. It was really good and passed the time wonderfully! This breakfast (below) was the morning we left Charleston and were off to Durham. I was AMAZED at the hotel breakfast. Seriously, biscuits and gravy?? I love biscuits and gravy. Though the eggs look pretty fake, they tasted really good. Anyways, this pregnant lady loved getting a hardy breakfast in my belly before the rest of the drive and moving in.

I think we rolled into Durham around... 1:00? Maybe a bit earlier, I can't remember! We checked out our place which looked a bit depressing with nothing in it. They also hadn't cleaned (carpets, vents, cabinets) quite as well as I would have hoped so I was feeling down about that. We went right to lunch at Bojangles here in Durham before we picked up the U-Haul and packed up our things from the shipping container to it. Guys. Bojangles is a religion here. Their fried chicken is SO good and I don't love fast food fried chicken (sorry, KFC) but it really is very good. They have these amazing little circular bites of happiness called "Botato rounds" and they're seriously amazing. I can't get enough of those things. And their biscuits? Delicious. Basically I love it there. Post lunch we: got the U-Haul, Zach + his brother Phil and some friends from the ward packed it at the shipping container while my mom and I ran to the grocery store to pick up some things like bug spray and dishwasher detergent, unpacked the U-Haul at the house, mom and I tried to start putting things away even though it seems pointless and that you'll live out of boxes for the rest of your life while Zach + Phil picked up a mattress from their place to bring here. Then we worked at the house for a bit before dropping off the U-Haul and heading to Phil + Laurel's for dinner. We were so excited to be all together (see below :))

The rest of my mama's stay was wonderful. She was THE biggest help I could've asked for. She was an angel and I feel so blessed that my mom is my best friend. I look up to her so much! Anyway, we ate yummy food, visited Duke and the American Tobacco campus, unpacked and by the time she left I felt a lot better about our new home. That doesn't mean I didn't break down into tears randomly throughout the next couple days because I missed her! It just means I know I'm the luckiest daughter to have her as my mom.

 ^^ ALSO, the COOLEST thing ever! There is a first edition copy of the Book of Mormon in the Duke Library. So one day we went to see it. You have to register but then you can go into a special room and hold it, read it and take pictures of it! It was a really neat experience. Shout out to the previous owner who drew a peacock in it?

 These are photos from after my mama left. Zach got his ID card, we visited Duke forest, went to an Iron and Wine concert (Zach was SO excited the whole time), and have been absolutely spoiled by our Phlaurel family with delicious meals. Like Phil's homemade pizza. SO GOOD. We love living so close to them and reap all the benefits of it in many different ways! Also, our cute nephews. We can't get enough of 'em.

Monday, September 5, 2016

last hurrah trip: part 4 so-cal

After we spent a week at home, we headed down south to (first) the Shake Shack. Yes, that was our first stop. Yes, I had been planning that since we decided to go to Disneyland. And yes, it was so worth it. Glorious, Shake Shack. I mean, look at this cutie's face! We were thrilled.

Okay so maybe the main reason for the Southern California part of the trip was just for Shake Shack. Jk jk, we went for Disneyland. It was THE BEST. I don't care how old I get, I will always love Disneyland. It was so so magical and I couldn't stop taking selfies. We ate a kids meal of mac 'n cheese at a restaurant of which I cannot remember the name, dole whip, a corn dog, a churro, a turkey leg, lots of expensive water bottles (totally worth it) and a yummy meal at the carnation cafe. We rode lots of rides (the ones I could ride) and just enjoyed our time together.

last hurrah trip: part 3 home

After the trip, we spent the week at home. Brentwood is one of my favorite places. Not just because it's my home but because of the people there that I love. My family is there, my mom's family is there, my B2 family is there and I just love the way I feel there. I always feel loved! Bringing Zach home for the first time was amazing and every time we go back together is the best. I can't WAIT until we can bring our sweet little gal along with us! We had an ultrasound, we visited Walnut Creek, ate yummy food, spent time with family, visited the temple, paddle boarded with friends and it was wonderful being home.